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Taylor being interviewed at the 2014 IHeartRadio Music Festival September 19th

I’m 16 years old,
Sitting at home, crying
Over food that scares me and
A self that I hate.
I am 16 and dying.

This is the reality of anorexia.

Whilst I dig my nails into
My despised, detested flesh
And cry my breaking heart to
Sleep, somewhere my friend is,
Kissing that boy underneath a thousand
Stars and a sky as clear
As her conscience.

And as I slowly fall
Into my slumber, my demons
Haunting me even in my
Dreams, somewhere another 16 year old
Girl is sleeping peacefully, holding onto
Love, happiness and

And when I cry at the crack of
Dawn, because I do not
Want to take another day,
Somewhere another 16 year old
Girl is walking peacefully
Breathing in life
And breathing out fresh,
Pure delight.
She is 16 and living,

I am not.

This is not fair.

The reality of anorexia
Is missing those special nights
Underneath the moonlight.
Feeling your heart beat
Strongly and thanking God
For your life,
Missing what it is, to be
Young, 16, free.

Do not let anorexia take that away from you.
You’re only your age once,
Make it count.

16 and Dying, 16 and Living. (via rediscoveryandrecovery)
“When I was 16,
I was the epitome
of butterflies in empty stomach:
always falling in love
with boys I knew
would leave me hungry
in the end.
Now I’m 17,
swallowing hearts whole
and spitting out bones:
I’m starting to learn
the only person
I need to fall in love with
is myself.”
a.v., a teenage memoir (via spiritslyrics)
“It’s watching your daughter die, but not suddenly. It’s day by day, looking frailer, smaller, closer to a coffin. It’s not seeing her be hit by a car or be kidnapped and murdered. God knows those things must be true torture. But don’t think because it’s not sudden it’s not utterly as painful- because watching your baby slowly wither away into dust and bones is slow and agonising because every moment spent seeing her get weaker is another moment you have to come to terms with what’s happening; another moment spent thinking what caused it, who’s to blame, what do you do. But those questions can never be answered until she chooses to recover herself… You’re not recovering, you’re melting away slowly but surely. Our tranquility is commendable. We’re not screaming and shouting and crying at you, but every day I spend sitting on the verge of tears, wondering if it’ll be the same tomorrow or if you’ll be gone.”
My dad, on having an anorexic daughter. (via untanglingamy)

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Iggy Azalea performs onstage during the 2014 iHeartRadio Music Festival Village on September 20, 2014 in Las Vegas, Nevada

Taylor Swift performs at day one of the iHeartRadio music festival - Septemeber 19th